Oh, friends. There’s a profound sense of restfulness and rightness washing over me as I sit down to write right now. It has been far too long since my last Coffee Date post. We’re talking since January! I am genuinely relieved to be in a place where I have the clarity to sit down and talk a bit about the latest going on around here. What a joy it is to share life with you!
For those of you who are new around here, Coffee Date posts are where I take a few words to get deeper than my daily outfit posts and share what has been going on in my life outside of Lonestar Southern. Of everything I do here, getting real with, sharing life with and relating with y’all through these in-depth (aka quite wordy) catch up posts is my very favorite.
With that being said, let’s dive into a few favorite photos that have characterized the past few months. You’ll find my full recap (aka jumbled mess of thoughts) below.
ready for the airport
meeting catherine lowe
palm beach, florida with lilly pulitzer
san miguel, mexico
san miguel, mexico
asia with starfish project
asia with starfish project
dress (bought in seville) // earrings
Let’s start with a question I’ve received from many of you over the past few weeks… why has it taken me so long to write up a new Coffee Date post?
I’ve always found it easier to share life updates when I’ve reached certain mental “conclusions” to whatever season in life I’ve been walking through – when I have perspective enough to tie up everything that I’ve been doing and learning into a nice, insightful, pretty little post.
Well, y’all… the greater part of the past eight months have been so transient and all over the place that until recently, “conclusive” is the last thing I have felt.
So many factors and things up in the air, so much going on that I didn’t feel like I had a grip on. That was me. Craving a place of routine and “settledness” and sunken-in roots, and instead, feeling all over the place both mentally and physically. But today, I’m happy and thankful to be sitting in a season of rest and clarity, ready to chat your ear off about it!
So what did the past eight months look like for me? A lot of travel. A lot of travel. In fact, I’d spend about two weeks a month at the very least away from my desk and life in Dallas. Initially, I loved the idea of that! Doesn’t it sound glamorous? Bopping around from destination to destination?
From the photos above, I know it certainly looked that way. Asia, Spain, Iceland, Sweden, France, Italy, Chicago, Nantucket, Palm Beach.
Trust me, there was so much of that travel and adventure that I absolutely loved. I feel so lucky that my schedule allowed for it. But what I didn’t realize was the toll it started to take on me personally. My life rhythm began to turn into two weeks of travel straight, minimum, and then two weeks of crunch time here in Dallas where I’d attempt to fit a months worth of work into fourteen days.
Turns out, that wasn’t a super healthy life-work balance for me. Who would have thought! :) Instead of the joy I’ve always found it to be, work started to become an overbearing burden. I wasn’t the friend I wanted to be since I was never around. Even things like my prayer life and commitments that I had here in Dallas suffered.
Amidst most of the fun and adventure (which is what you see all prettily-filtered above), there was exhaustion, insecurity and a feeling of displacement.
But then, in an unforeseen turn of events, life slowed down. It was the last thing I expected, but little did I know it was just what I needed.
July rolled around, and after a conversation of mutual clarity, the cowboy and I decided to break up. The long-distance element was a challenge we were both happy to work around, but at the end of the day, it was a pace we couldn’t keep up.
I want to take a second to say that he is an absolutely incredible guy, and I only have thankfulness for our story. I feel so lucky to have had him in my life, and am so excited for where the Lord takes him in his future!
It’s been in the wake of that decision that travel has begun to slow down considerably over the past few months. Life has settled into a wonderful, manageable, orderly pace. Sine I’m not here only two out of four weeks, I have had weekends here in Dallas to devote to friends and rest. I’ve started being able to be present for the things I want and need to be present for.
Out of a sad moment, God brought a lot of blessing I didn’t know I needed.
The older I get, and as each passing Coffee Date goes by, I see more and more just how well the Lord knows me. He knows my heart, my desires, my thoughts, my insecurities and my dreams far better and more clearly than I ever could. Time and time again, I’ve seen Him provide for me in ways that were anything but “wanted” at first, and which turned into profound blessings.
“He has made everything beautiful in its time.” Ecclesiastes 3:11
This verse has been cycling through my heart and mind over the past few weeks because in this season I’ve seen it is so true. The Lord makes everything beautiful in its time. In His time. See, the thing is, so often it isn’t my timing or my standard of “beauty.” For the longest time that made me feel like He didn’t really know me or understand what I was going through… because I couldn’t see the “finish line” or “happily ever after” right away. Moment after moment of “Really, God?! Not exactly what I had planned. At ALL.”
But the older I get, the more thankful I am for that. I see it time and time again. He knows so much more than I do. He sees so much more than I do. His ways are so much better than mine.
So now that I’ve reached this season of happiness and contentment, what’s ahead? Oh y’all… so many fun things! Two of my very best friends are engaged, and this girl loves nothing more than wedding festivities. I have a trip to Washington D.C. planned here in the next couple of weeks, and get to visit my best friend Amanda in Austin this weekend. Dallas life continues to be so fun as amazing new restaurants pop up all over the place and I have the opportunity to meet more and more people. I’m loving spin class at SoulCycle, Halo Top Cookies & Cream ice cream, 3:30 pm cups of coffee and listening to Cody Johnson on repeat.
Life is beautiful and life is good, even when life is hard. Today, I’m rejoicing in how He has made and will continue to make everything beautiful in its time.
Love from Texas,