Hippy hoppy Friday, friends! Today, I wanted to catch you up on life a wee bit, and I figured an Insta recap would be the best way to kick that off! Below, you’ll find my latest Instas from @LonestarSouthern along with all of their details. (If you haven’t registered for LIKEtoKNOW.it yet, that’s a great way to get details automatically whenever I post a new pic!) Scroll below to find the part where I ramble. Because rambling is something I’m rather good at. You’ve been warned.
The month of August has flown by, and I always feel bittersweet about it coming to an end. On the one hand, I hate that summer is wrapping up… this one has been one of my absolute favorites, and it will be missed. But on the other hand, I love the routine and normalcy that fall brings. Summer has been go-go-go for me this year, and while that has been lots of fun, it’s also been exhausting! I think more than anything, I’m just excited for “normal life” to kick in as fall rolls around the corner. Know what I mean?
It’s also crazy to think that I’ll now be adjusting to “post grad” life. This summer didn’t feel that way, since most friends were traveling and hadn’t settled down into their full time jobs. Now, though, everyone has finally trickled into their retrospective cities, and things are feeling a lot more “adult.” I’m thrilled that a few wonderful friends from UT have made the move to Dallas. A few of us went out for dinner last night (did you see my snap @lonestarsnaps?) and realizing that these girls were here to stay, and that we’ll all be transitioning together, brought me SO much joy.
I’m also really, really excited/in a state of disbelief in sharing with y’all that I’m blogging full time now! I didn’t realize blogging was even a thing, much less a way people can earn a living, until that fateful public relations class sophomore year. (Huge shoutout to you, Prof. Junker!) The absolute and only reason I’m able to do this is because each of you decide to visit this little site and care enough to keep coming back, and because the Lord has graciously shown me that “Yep, this is good for now.” You actually mean the world, and being grateful doesn’t even begin to cut it! I am so excited to be able to dedicate my time and energy to this little blog now, and can’t wait to bring you new, fun things all the more often because of it!
Finally… I want to address something that I’ve been getting a few questions on over the past few months… “Are you and Jeff still dating?” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat down to write out an answer here. But the timing never seemed right, the words never seemed eloquent enough, and the courage required to hit “publish” was never there. I knew my deepest desire in sharing this would be to share what I’ve been learning in it, and the pressure to do that in the perfect way stopped me in my tracks a few times.
For some reason, though, as I sat down to write this post today, it felt right. So I won’t put it off any longer. The answer to that question is no. Jeff and I no longer are dating.
That’s a hard sentence to type out, because as many of you know, Jeff was a huge and wonderful part of my life for so long. But as the Lord has been faithfully showing me, and as the Lord faithfully showed both of us throughout the whole process, there is nothing more wonderful than following Him.
After dating for over three years, Jeff and I realized through a lot of prayer that after having led us alongside one another for so long, the Lord was leading us in different directions. Man. That was a hard, hard realization. But here’s the amazing part. The Lord was only gracious and only loving in how He led us to that point.
Jeff and I were able to part without an ounce of anger, bitterness or resentment towards one another and instead, with all the love and gratitude and admiration in the world towards each other for the huge blessing we’d been in each other’s lives. It wasn’t a fight, a fallout or a betrayal… it was a decision we made together after the Lord made it so clear it’s what He wanted from both of us at this time.
I’m learning that so often, what the Lord asks of us is hard. It may not make complete sense at the time, it may involve pain and it may involve a different direction than the one you thought you were going to walk down. But what the Lord asks of us is absolutely worth it.
It’s absolutely worth it to put your life in the hands of the One who made you, the One who desperately loves you and the One wants only good for you.
That good, surprise surprise, doesn’t always look how I want it to. But time and time again He’s proved himself faithful to me… that He knows what is good for me better than I do. My only job is to trust and to follow Him instead of my own understanding, especially in the difficult and confusing times.
I think the temptation at this point in life is to kinda freak out… not knowing exactly what this next year, or even the next few months, has in store can overwhelm me if I think about it too much. Those are the moments I have to remind myself that luckily, I’m not on my own. Luckily, I don’t have to have it all figured out!
That’s the joy of having a relationship with Christ, y’all. It makes life much more calm knowing I’m in His hands, and it makes facing the unknown do-able, knowing He knows what I do not. For those of us who have our foundation built on Him, we have the assurance of knowing nothing can shake that. THAT is a blessing, no matter what season we find ourselves in.
So there you have it… the longest post I’ve written by far. If there’s one takeaway I hope you get from Jeff and I’s story, it’s that we chose to put our trust in and to follow the Lord. In doing that, He proved himself faithful every single step of our relationship, even in it’s close. I don’t have my life together, I don’t have it all figured out, and there’s SO much I don’t know… BUT in the midst of all of that, I have found JOY and PEACE in following Him. And that joy and peace is available to you, as well.
My hope is that if nothing else, today’s post serves as a reminder that when scary or painful or unforeseen things happen in your life, you can rely on someone much bigger than yourself and someone much bigger than your circumstances. Lean on Him, y’all. I am doing so, and I can tell you that it’s so worth it.
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.
Love from Texas,